Thursday, November 15, 2012

Here I am and what I've learned

I know you've all been waiting with bated breath for my return, so here I am! Where have I been? You know, just living the dream. Life in the last few months has been interesting, mostly in the 'WTF' kind of way and every time I opened this page to blog, my brain would just shut down like I had opened too many programs on the computer. Fear not, my sarcasm and derby obsession have returned to regale you with my tales of awesome and not-so-awesomeness...

As of today, I am 43lbs down and working hard to knock out another 7 lbs to hit my original goal as well as an important personal goal for myself. Through all 43 of these pounds, its been an adventure of self-discovery.

Being successful at losing weight forces you to get in tune with your body - which, by the way seems like a total contradiction of every weight loss program out there. Calories in versus calories out is the basis of losing weight, duh, but for me its much more about what I need that day and keeping a balance of eating healthy and knowing when your body (and mind!) needs a cheat.

There are days when I eat a cupcake for breakfast, Twizzlers for lunch, and Mexican for dinner and other days where I drink a giant coffee for breakfast and have nothing until I eat grilled fish and vegetables for dinner. Granted, I don't eat nearly as much as I used to, but I still eat plenty of junk. Could I lose weight much faster if I jumped on a treadmill 7 days a week and ate nothing but brown rice and grilled chicken? Of course, but I'd also be the angriest person ever and that would last for a few months at most.

I do have to say that I don't think I could have started losing weight with this method because what I thought I was eating versus how much I was really eating needed to be addressed and counting calories helped me get to that point. Once my body adjusted to eating less and I started losing weight and weighing daily, I began recognizing patterns and using them to my advantage. More about this later :)

For now, I'm feeling good about my progress and getting a little more used to my body every day. Some days I feel like I don't recognize myself. My body feels "pointier" and I'm losing weight in the weirdest places (collarbones?), but not enough in other places (stomach fat, ugh). This is definitely the best thing I have done for myself in a long time.